Daily Meditation Medication

I can’t do this thing

that you ask of me

live this life

that you gve to me

it is too much

I thought it would get easier

if i tried to get up each morning

if i kept on trying

to get through each day

but it is so hard

I feel like i am alone in this

that you are not near

and yet I know you are

because I believe in you

but I don’t feel

you near me

and my soul

seeks refuge in you

in its distress

but it can not find you

I do not feel

your embrace

I do  not hear

your voice

I do not feel

your Holy Spirit

guiding me

and I fear

I do not

have the strength

to go onwards

alone

to

run

this

race

and

to

finish

it

I do not ask

for wealth

or fame

or for

things

of this world

I only ask

that

in

my

despair

you will find me

and let me know

that

i

am

loved

and that

all things

even

these things

even

this pain

in the very

heart of me

can

bear

fruit

that

is

good.