A brief post to apologise for being so negligent with regards the blog and to once more implore your prayers. Dad was rushed into hospital via ambulance late on Saturday evening. Mum and I left him at about 3am and he was having a really rough time. He has been very unwell since leaving hospital last time and he is largely dependant on oxygen for most of his days and nights but even this hasn’t been sorted out properly yet. Last week he saw his specialist who said he MUST be on oxygen for at least 15 hous a day…but the people who deal with the oxygen say Dad has to wait another month till his next oxygen appointment and then it will be sorted. As you can imagine, in the meantime Dad suffers terribly. He is being incredibly brave (as is Mum).
He is on lots of medication and has some oxygen at home, but not the quantities he needs, and of course, those damned chest infections keep slamming his body just about every week..as soon as his antibiotics and steroids finish he needs to go back on them.
In fact some of the tests Dad has had prove that there is only one antibiotic that now works on him and he has had a years worth of other antibiotics that have done naff all, interpersed from time to time with the one antibiotic that does actually work (though the docs who prescribed it didn’t know at the time).
As regular readers will be aware, Dad has asbestosis plaque on his lung(s), he has only 40% of his lungs working at any time and now he has blood clots (old and new) in his lungs, he suffers form C.O.P.D chronic bonchitis (the type that never goes)/emphysema. In addition to this they have now discovered that the right side of his heart is weak as it has been trying to do the job of supporting his inefficient lungs for so long and some of the blood clots are right next to right side of his heart which adds further complications.
We will be visiting Dad later on today. Since Saturday evening we had been visiting him in the A & E department as there are no beds available on the chest ward at the hospital where Dad needs to be assesed, so once again, he is being shuffled around from one ward to another while he awaits being placed on the very ward where the medics actually specialise in his health problems!
It is very frustrating.
Anyway, just wanted to let you all know how things are with Dad as so many of you have expressed concern whether here on the blog, via email or elsewhere on the internet.
Thanks so much for that.
In other news, Wondergirl is doing really well with her commute to and from Uni, clocking well over 400 miles a week of driving, bless her. She has made new friends and is embracing uni life in so far as she can when she lives so distant from it.
In still other news Blunderboy and i have not managed to work out our differences. Haven’t seen him now for months and don’t know when i will again. However, i have written to him a couple of times just to let him know i love him and miss him and of course, to say that he is always welcome to visit or to come for tea. He has chosen not to respond and instead has sought to effectively cease contact.
In better news he did actually phone my mum last week to see if he could visit. (whether it was because i wrote in my last letter that i was surprised he had not contacted his grandparents, or whether he would have done anyway i don’t know). He did visit my parents for a couple of hours last week. I wasn’t there. The main thing is that i know he is well and that he is alright and as long as i know that, then i try not to be overly anxious about the situation between us. (Easier said than done).
Rightio, think that’s about everything i have to say at this time…apart from that i am a bit torn about the blog….a couple of times i have thought about deleting it but i have resisted the temptation. I suppose i feel that i ought to blog more regularly, but then if i am not having a good day or family need me etc, i don’t feel like blogging. Sometimes i think there is something i would like to post about, but then it slips my mind or life takes over….as it is does…but i do think i shall blog again more frequently, when life settles down.
How can i put this…i just don’t feel that i can ‘do deep’. I don’t want to blog frippery, but i just do not have the mental headspace for ‘deep’ posts of any sort. I may however, get back into blogging about my more creative side and what i’m getting up to when i do have the energy or time to let fly creatively. Maybe that might be of interest to some who pass this way? What say you?
Please know that i remember you all at Mass and think about you often and I am very thankful for your kind words, encouragement and your support for me and mine.